Okay wow I’m really excited to be releasing this song. It’s hard to explain why a song feels really personal when it’s through a Tumblr post, but this song means a lot to me. I’ve been so sad and this song has been around, and I’ve been so happy and this song has been around. It’s accumulated layers of memories because it’s been around for a long time. Releasing it feels very intimate for some reason.
I wrote a version of it on piano in 2008 when I was nineteen but then forgot about it until my friend found it on my computer a few years later.
When I first wrote it the lyrics didn’t mean that much to me, they just kind of came out. I didn’t consider it anything special — at the time I was trying to write as many songs as possible, filling hard drives with recordings just for practice. Then for a long while after that I lost confidence in my ability to write songs, and during this time my friend used “Bugs Don’t Buzz” as an example of why I had made beautiful things and shouldn’t be so hard on myself. As is so often the case when someone is trying to help you, I didn’t really listen as much as I could have!
Before Matt and I played our first show, I realized I could sing the song over a piano loop, so we played it live and it felt really good. So this is the recorded version of the song. It’s a special song to me because of everything I just explained. It feels like the act of playing it is in some small way an attempt to repay the friend who encouraged me to have confidence.
“Bugs Don’t Buzz” is on a record called Impersonator that is coming out on May 21st in North America and May 27th everywhere else.
this is my favorite song on the majical cloudz album, i think. i’m working on a remix of it that will maybe get finished and come out some day, though working on it is intense because it is such an intense song it never stops feeling intense no matter how many times i hear it. it is completely and totally worth your time.
there is not a miligram of doubt within me that nick cannon wakes up every morning totally psyched out of his mind that he is married to mariah carey. like it is very easy for me to imagine him springing to attention the moment his eyes open every morning all like OH MY GOODNESS THIS IS AMAZING I CAN’T EVEN BELIEVE THIS I’VE GOTTA TELL SOMEBODY! SIRI! SIRI! CALL MY MOM! MOM! I’M MARRIED TO MARIAH CAREY THIS IS INCREDIBLE! WE HAVE THESE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN THEY’RE TWINS MOM TWINS AS IF MY LIFE HASN’T ALREADY BEEN BLESSED BY ENOUGH MIRACLES! I WANT TO SHOUT! I NEED TO CELEBRATE! I FEEL SO HAPPY I COULD EXPLODE BUT I WILL NOT BECAUSE THAT WOULD PREVENT ME FROM RAISING THESE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN AND GROWING OLD WITH MY BEAUTIFUL SOULMATE! WHAT A WONDERFUL DAY!
if you google image search “mariah carey nick cannon” or “mariah carey family” the ratio of pictures where nick cannon looks so happy he’s going to burst versus the pictures where he looks like he’s a more conventional, manageable but still exceptional level of happy is about 2:1. nick cannon exhibits not even trace evidence of doubt, fatigue, or disappointment regarding his family or the path his life is on. if i were to hook nick cannon up to a lie detector and ask him “are you satisfied with your life” i have no doubt that he would, without missing a beat, shout something like ARE YOU KIDDING I HAVE THE GREATEST LIFE ANYONE HAS EVER HAD, I AM MARRIED TO MARIAH CAREY AND WE HAVE TWO BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN TOGETHER! DETACH ME FROM THIS INFERNAL DEVICE AND CEASE YOUR RIDICULOUS QUESTIONING SO THAT I CAN GO TO THEM AND TAKE THEM TO A MUSEUM WHERE THEY CAN LEARN ABOUT DINOSAURS!
though nick cannon is himself a famous celebrity and a good looking man, he never comes across as someone who ever feels burdened by the major relationships in his life, or as someone who struggles with temptation. nick cannon never seems like someone who struggles with temptaiton at all. it seems like temptation is something he rolls his eyes at, something that he runs over with the wheels of a minivan that he sometimes drives on his way to take his kids to cold stone creamery for a surprise snack one friday to celebrate the first time they successfully read a book without pictures in it. nick cannon is so comfortable with the idea that he will never be with another woman beisdes the one he is married to that he got a giant tattoo of the word “mariah” across his back to make sure that the rest of the world never forgets who he belongs to.
i appreciate you, nick cannon. you seem like a pretty cool guy.
the other day i saw an exchange on twitter where someone tweeted a photo they’d taken of the international space station visible in the night sky and an astronaut who was actually on the international space station at that exact moment replied to it saying something like “you can almost see us waving to you!”
today i saw this website vinepeek.com which is a constant stream of short 3-second video clips being taken and uploaded right this second by thousands of people all around the world, there is no break between them except for loading depending on the speed of your internet connection and computer processor, it is just a constant uninterrupted stream of everything that everyone on earth with a smartphone thinks is worth recording or broadcasting 24 hours a day
i wish i could go visit my 14-year old self sometimes, like show up once a month in my old room the way that doctor who sometimes drops in on his friends and companions randomly to let them know what he’s up to. i wish i could show up there with a clipboard and a list of facts that would be of interest to my 14-year old self, a list of facts that confirm that the world is going in a good direction and that the future is a place it is justified to be excited about travelling to. i wish i could go tell him that people on space stations will tweet back at you if you notice them orbiting the planet above you, and explain vinepeek and tumblr to him, and show him the post that claire made earlier this week on her tumblr and explain to him that the person who wrote it, the person he will respect and admire more than anyone else on earth will also be the person who he wakes up next to every morning